A Love Letter to God
It's a story about a young girl. Growing up during the Depression of the 1930's. A busy household of four other siblings, two older brothers and two older sisters. She was the youngest. Her story starts at a young age. Feeling somewhat lost in the mix of her much older siblings, her identity took years to define. Her parents came from Catholic backgrounds. Quite inactive in their own church goings. Her own friends, although, had kept busy in weekly church activities, but this young shy girl, again, was just not connecting. She began journaling her thoughts and prayers recommended from a favorite aunt. Her name was Gertrude, or Gertie for short.
Gertie was a strong woman of faith. She encouraged this young girl to pray her thoughts in her journaling. This was a new concept for her. Eventually, invitations to attend her church came into the picture. She found her belonging. She had connected. Some things were starting to make sense. God was making sense. As she grew, her church activities grew. Participating in the Youth group, church camps and eventually the choir. Her two sisters were also part of the choir. She now had a strong sense of belonging.
Still journaling in her 30's, she has now found herself married with three children. Again, as the youngest, all her older siblings had been married for years with many of their own children grown. She wasn't sure how to be the kind of woman she had been praying and journaling about for many years. She was insecure on so many levels. But...she continued to journal her thoughts and prayers asking for direction and reassurance. Many times there were cries to the Lord for continued guidance. Sometimes yes, she was reassured, other times again feeling forgotten. But, she never questioned God's plan for her. She knew, deep down, that her life did have meaning and purpose.
A highly educated woman, she was finding a purpose as an educator. Her children are now grown. A divorce has occurred after 34 years. Her cherished siblings are scattered all over from Michigan down to Florida. She stays as busy as she can. But, sometimes feeling overwhelmed. But, she continues to pray and journal. As an older adult, she loved being more active within her church. Any Bible study she could attend or Sunday school class she could teach, along with many other groups she had participated in. Her note-taking was impeccable, with many comments left in the margins of her study books and also of her own Bibles. Over the course of her last few years she still continued to journal a bit.
Her faith had become very strong...never once faltering. But now, her journaling has come to an end. And...all of her prayers have now been fulfilled by a life well-lived. After her death, her middle child, a daughter, came across many, many prayers and journaling thoughts. Reading these numerous pieces of paper scattered among her many Bibles, seeing all the underlined passages and comments in the margins, her daughter came to the conclusion that her mother truly was never alone. God always heard her pleas and cries and thankfulness for her many, many joys she celebrated. And she knew her mother never doubted God's presence. She was never alone.
Yes, this is titled, 'A Love Letter to God' but after writing this devotion I've changed the title to 'A Love Letter to Mom.'
One of many favorite passages of Mom’s was Philippians 4:6-8 – “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Dedicated
with all the love and glory to God, our father.
Cathy Cupples